LETTING GO

 

 I always heard the phrase “if you love something let it go, if it was meant to be Itll come back”

But the truth is I’m clingy, and every night feels like another battle inside my chest the constant beating as my heart beats itself up, banging against the jail cell they call a rib cage, wishing to break away from the pain of letting go because it chooses to love something it can’t have, at least not just yet.

 A free spirit should not be held down, I repeat that sentence to myself every night that you are away, a free spirit should not be held down

As i beat myself up for falling in love with a Forest Nymph who I know shouldn’t be held down in a city, 

But i cant help but look at my star, and see that smile so pretty.

The only smile I wish to have, but you journey away every other day to complete another page in the book of life they wish to write. If I said no, that would not be right.

To deny someone of their journey, of happiness, to combate my loneliness? 

I would rather watch my Forest Nymph ride off in a horse they paid for themselves, and changed it forever making a mark on what the horse used to be, making it hers in this brand new adventure. 

I would rather watch than be with her, because that’s her happiness and she’s my world. 

I can find something else to buy the time, to remain happy without you, until the stars line up right, and I see my Forest Nymphs smile again.